Wednesday, April 16, 2008
last week of sch! have mixed feelings abt it..feel happy coz sch's ending soon which means hols are coming! but sad coz exams are also coming and most of my frenz will be graduating this yr.. will miss them alot! really hope that we still have chances to meet up in the future when they all start working..haiz..3yrs juz pass by like that..seems so long ago when we first step into NUS and got lost in Science..haha..we're all so old now..in a couple of yrs time ppl will start getting married and i'm interested to noe who'll be the first ones..haha..
was looking my my pri sch photo the other day..i have this whole box of things that i kept over the yrs..all the cards and gifts that i received..and my autograph books..and i stumbled upon my diary which i kept during my secondary and jc days..since i was bored i decided to read it..haha.. quite interesting sia..cant rmb so many things that happened in my life..but i think the most prominent thing was the part when i was with that jerk..cant believe i let it drag on for so long and let it affect mi so much..looking back i think i was quite naive..but i learned alot from that episode..i no longer like guys easily anymore..i'm quite guarded when it comes to love..coz i dun wanna let myself get hurt again..alot of ppl think i dun have bf coz i got high standards but i dun think so..i juz wanna keep my options open and be the one who's choosing instead..i dun see the need to rush into a relationship juz for the sake of having one..
anyway tues had organometallics test and it sux like hell..i think i'm gonna flunk it..it'll take a miracle for mi to pass..my brain was so dead that day coz i was so tired that i couldnt rmb anything that i studied at all..it was damn bad..in the end i was juz guessing my way through..so i pray that i do super super well for my exam so that my grade wouldnt be too bad..juz like last sem for TM..all i ask for is a B+..i juz need enough points to secure my honours project..and i dun wanna graduate this sem..
i think all this fear of not being able to do honours and all the stupid work that has been weighing mi down the past 2 weeks is taking a toll on mi..i'm really really tired..my brain is not functioning properly..i juz want a very very long break..right now all i want is to drink some alcohol and dance the night away so all my troubles would go away..
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
