Thursday, June 05, 2008
been feeling rather bored these days..went to dye my hair on monday and pedicure on tues..met the gals for dinner at bedok 85 yest..the rest of the time were spent rotting at home..watching hk dramas and HBO reruns..i need some excitement in my life..so glad that i'll be overseas for 2 weeks..get away from here and all that drilling noise from the lift upgrading thing..
i've been feeling lost this past week..it's complicated..haha..the problem is nobody can help mi coz i myself dunnoe wat i want also..maybe i've been thinking too much..all this time spent cooped up at home is not helping either..it juz makes mi think more..i rather enjoy the times when i'm alone taking a walk or driving along the roads..it gives mi time to divulge in all my confusing thoughts..i'm juz feeling all mixed up inside..rite till this point i still dun really noe wat's going on.. somehow i always get caught in some kinda shit stuff..i ask myself wat to wanna get outta this and i cant even answer myself..somehow i'm torn between the two sides and i also dun exactly noe wat the other side's thoughts are..i guess i'm afraid of taking that step..i wanna be very sure before doing anything drastic..in fear of being hurt again..and risk losing a fren in the process.. and i guess the break will let mi clear up all these confusions and hopefully i'll noe wat i really want..
there are certain things that happen recently which i shall take a neutral stand on..i simply dun wanna take sides..u prob think i'm selfish..but i really dun wanna add anymore burden to my brain..i really need to get away..sometimes i wished that i can jet off to some foreign land alone and juz enjoy exploring the place..without any worries..
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I guess this is a beautiful mistake too...# ;
